Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Last Glimpse to the World


On June 19, I started my 10 days meditation course in Kaufman TX. I have really enjoyed. It was a very special kind of life, After I have been forced to isolate from the outside world, I felt very wonderful. I only do three things everyday: eat, sleep, and meditate. My mind got quiet down. The cool breeze caressed the quiet meadow under the hot Texas sun. The bright full moon fell to the horizon in the deep blue morning. I felt I was in heaven. .... However in this peaceful tranquility, I didn’t realize that an horrendous emotional storm was at the verge.

On the third day in the morning. I was sitting quietly gazing my respiration. The course manager whispered that he needed to talk to me. I came out the meditation hall. He brought me the bad news: my father had just passed away.

I have to cut my meditation course short. I was not ready but must deal with reality again. After a short and busy preparation. I was on the 12 hours flight to Beijing. My life is just like that, from an extreme to another, high contrast and surreal.

My father’s passing was peaceful. I am glad he has been liberated from the eleven year of suffering of Parkinson’s disease. My father was wonderful teacher to me. He has manifested right in front me what the life really is. I have been pondering my own death, and I know my life even better. I want to thank him for all the good lessons.

This short stay in Beijing will end soon, and I will be back to the States tomorrow. Yesterday, I force myself to paint. This is my father 4 months ago. I didn’t do it as an art study. It is a portrait of the truth.

51 comments:

Peter Barker said...

My commiserations Qiang. What a wonderful portrait of your father. I did one of my dad when he died and it was done from the heart. Happier times ahead I hope.

barbara schilling said...

So sorry for your loss Qiang. The portrait is very moving.

Carolina said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Maggie Latham said...

A sad, yet inspirational post..... what a wonderful painting to remember him by.

Bob Blackmon said...

Such a sad story; my blessings to you, Qiang. May you take comfort in all those good memories of your father.

Bob Blackmon
blackmonstudio.com

Marsha Carlson said...

Condolences. I feel honored to read this blog. Peace

Jeanette Crawford Baird said...

What a moving portrait of your father. I am sorry for your loss.

Janie said...

Oh, Qiang, I am so glad you were able to visit him this winter. That should give you much consolation. You are a very good son. How is your mother doing?
Your portrait is moving. Your brush strokes are so confident.
Sending you much sympathy and good thoughts,
Janie Horn

Lili Anne Laurin said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your father. Your post was very moving and powerful and the portrait was full of tenderness.

Sherry Schmidt said...

I'm sorry Qiang, I'm glad you visited your father a few months ago. Also regret your meditation days were cut short.

Marlene said...

I have been following your blog for a few months and have been touched not only by your art but also your personal life that you had revealed.

My deepness apologies for your loss. You had truly captured the essence of your father as do your other paintings of the world around you.

Celeste Bergin said...

Heartfelt condolences to you. Your father must have been a very great man. He looks very wise in the portrait you painted.

Jerry Stocks said...

So sorry to hear of your father's passing, but how lovely to know he is at peace. The portrait is wonderful.

AH said...

Très émouvant portrait.
Sincères condoléances Qiang.

Lee Smith said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Qiang.

Amanda Bilson said...

So sorry for your loss Qiang, please accept my condolences. The portrait is so powerful and very moving.

Linda McCoy said...

So very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute you have created both in words and in paint.

Celene Farris said...

Condolences to you and your family. Thank you for sharing your moving story with us.

Bruce B. Hancock said...

You are a wondrous soul. Following your blog has been inspirational, moving and even spiritual experience.

Your life is a tribute to your Father...and your portrait of him is one of the most heartfelt I've ever seen. I honestly choked up when I looked into his eyes.

It will be my profound privilege to finally meet you in Sacramento next year.

J Hardison said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. I am sure he was very proud of you and enjoy all your wonderful memories of him. Safe travels.

Pamela Nichols said...

Deep peace to you, Qiang.

RoseAnn Hayes said...

I'm so sorry for your sadness, Quiang. I wish you and your family peace and serenity, and I wish you a very safe journey back to Texas. It is a privilege to read about your journey. It has made me determined to attend one of your workshops and meet you in person. Thank you for sharing.

Darla McDowell said...

I am so very sorry, Qiang. Sending thoughts of peace and comfort to you and your sweet family.

Deodanda Pretorius said...

I am very sorry for your loss, Qiang. Treasure the memories he left you in your heart, he will always be a part of you.

Karen Robinson said...

A very thought provoking and moving post. Thank you for sharing this with us and for the,lovely portrait. My sincere sympathies for your loss. It is a very troubling and sad experience to lose your parent.

Danny Griego said...

Sincere condolences to you and your family. That portrait is an awesome tribute. Stay strong and inspired.

Kimberly Santini said...

Qiang, your father's portrait is so very touching. In it I see the hand of a loving and beloved son, as well as a remarkable artist. My condolences as your heart heals. Kim

Carol said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Adriana Guidi said...

Such a beautiful tribute to your dad Qiang!

Leslie Bishop said...

Blessings to you and your family, Qiang. After such a long struggle with disease, I'm glad your dad can be free. It's a sad thing to experience, and my heart feels for you.

Thank you for sharing so much with so many of us.

Barbara Pask said...

My heart goes out to you and your family Qiang.

Donna Pomponio Theis said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. I'm sure he was very proud of his son.
Donna Pomponio Theis

Kristen Dukat Art said...

He is beautiful.

Bill Sharp said...

So sorry for your loss.

MeeLi Lee said...

Very sorry for your lost, Qiang.

The portrait of your father is beautiful.

Meg Lyman said...

Thinking of you and your family. The portrait is full of love and life.

Lisa Graham Art said...

Just learned of your father. I am very sorry for your loss. Your painting of him is beautiful. He has beautiful and soulful eyes.

Lisa
from Wichita, Kansas

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