Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Last Glimpse to the World
On June 19, I started my 10 days meditation course in Kaufman TX. I have really enjoyed. It was a very special kind of life, After I have been forced to isolate from the outside world, I felt very wonderful. I only do three things everyday: eat, sleep, and meditate. My mind got quiet down. The cool breeze caressed the quiet meadow under the hot Texas sun. The bright full moon fell to the horizon in the deep blue morning. I felt I was in heaven. .... However in this peaceful tranquility, I didn’t realize that an horrendous emotional storm was at the verge.
On the third day in the morning. I was sitting quietly gazing my respiration. The course manager whispered that he needed to talk to me. I came out the meditation hall. He brought me the bad news: my father had just passed away.
I have to cut my meditation course short. I was not ready but must deal with reality again. After a short and busy preparation. I was on the 12 hours flight to Beijing. My life is just like that, from an extreme to another, high contrast and surreal.
My father’s passing was peaceful. I am glad he has been liberated from the eleven year of suffering of Parkinson’s disease. My father was wonderful teacher to me. He has manifested right in front me what the life really is. I have been pondering my own death, and I know my life even better. I want to thank him for all the good lessons.
This short stay in Beijing will end soon, and I will be back to the States tomorrow. Yesterday, I force myself to paint. This is my father 4 months ago. I didn’t do it as an art study. It is a portrait of the truth.